i would like a voice
that exist independent of myself
anyone could hear it and think, "yes,
yes he is."
but my broken and swollen tenor
falls flat more often than it doesn't
and with out the support it needs
to stay afloat
fractured
in this seat, commuting back and forth
the only thought that comes is of you,
your face in my hand, palm at your cheek
and my grip tightening and your skin flushing
and eyes, widening
and your skulls snaps at my fingers
to dust, and i breath you in
only to vomit it back and die inside you,
like lovers should.
the only thought that comes is of you,
your face in my hand, palm at your cheek
and my grip tightening and your skin flushing
and eyes, widening
and your skulls snaps at my fingers
to dust, and i breath you in
only to vomit it back and die inside you,
like lovers should.
spinerette
keeping warm the best i can
rubbing this shit out
below the heater vent
spilling heat i am stealing
fucked up on sleep
and allergy medication
i can't tell when i am
awake
so i sit in my room
half naked
looking for the small cut
between my wrist and elbow
that i can push my fingers through
pulling out muscle fibers
like ribbons and tie them to the window sill
till i can find the bone
and snap her in half
rubbing this shit out
below the heater vent
spilling heat i am stealing
fucked up on sleep
and allergy medication
i can't tell when i am
awake
so i sit in my room
half naked
looking for the small cut
between my wrist and elbow
that i can push my fingers through
pulling out muscle fibers
like ribbons and tie them to the window sill
till i can find the bone
and snap her in half
bled, bleeding, breeding
i have been working again
getting past the breakdowns
and seeing past what was holding
me down or back
and still belong outside you.
and it's the things our bodies did
when no one could see,
when you were not looking,
that i miss the most
in hindsight
i can, i never really mattered
getting past the breakdowns
and seeing past what was holding
me down or back
and still belong outside you.
and it's the things our bodies did
when no one could see,
when you were not looking,
that i miss the most
in hindsight
i can, i never really mattered
THE Fence, not A Fence
culling shit from her room
collected, she misconnected
her ideas in news papers
always at the edge, where it hurt the most
it was a charm
held still at the base
of the bones that keep
your sorry ass standing straight
hollow like birds, not for flight
just another series of holes
to sink deep in and assume
you are better than most, if not all
collected, she misconnected
her ideas in news papers
always at the edge, where it hurt the most
it was a charm
held still at the base
of the bones that keep
your sorry ass standing straight
hollow like birds, not for flight
just another series of holes
to sink deep in and assume
you are better than most, if not all
dealing
grace, i needed grace
she smelled sweet of
blueberries and vanilla
shaking rainsoaked
i stood before her
with hand fulls of
the stars collected
in insomnia she
cured, and dulled
the sharp pangs
of my regret
i was trying to sound out
the past few months
make sense of what
i gave up and gave in to
watching dolls run around
pretending they have shit down
trying to site hypocritical resources
she would become only a faded sketch
outlined red and scribbled blue
despite what you think you know
the first verse isn't for you
she smelled sweet of
blueberries and vanilla
shaking rainsoaked
i stood before her
with hand fulls of
the stars collected
in insomnia she
cured, and dulled
the sharp pangs
of my regret
i was trying to sound out
the past few months
make sense of what
i gave up and gave in to
watching dolls run around
pretending they have shit down
trying to site hypocritical resources
she would become only a faded sketch
outlined red and scribbled blue
despite what you think you know
the first verse isn't for you
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